sharontaylor

So here we are in the middle of May. What a wonderful month it has been. I have uploaded a few photos from my adventures at United Bellydance League Convention in Bryson City, NC. Enjoy

here we all are again making promises to ourselves to be better people. yet we know we will stumble and fall and most will not get back up. it is those few who do who will change the world with their determindation. i myself have fallen and i have yet to know if i have the courage to dust myself off or if i will hunker down and wait for the world to pass me by. i am tired of fighting and not getting anywhere and giving my heart only to have it stepped upon. art has been a part of my life ever since i can remember picking up that first crayon and coloring inside the lines. but i find myself doubting the reason i was given this gift to want to create. i have randomly roamed from art form to art form, drawing, photography, acting, dance. i can not settle and be happy. i can not find the true me under all the masks and coverings. we decorate ourselves up to be presented to the world. but we lose ourselves to it. i want me back. i want to be happy with who i am and not with who you want me to be. i know i will probably fall back and continue to do as i have always done. but i know i am doing it out of habit. we are taught from young child hood that we should try to please others and to be selfless to be part of the team. what the hell are we thinking. we need to teach them to be their selves to stand up and scream at the top of their lungs I AM HERE! i know this is probably the winter depressed ramblings of my soul. but it is how i feel at the moment. be you for you!

so i left my lovely job as a high school lunch lady to return to the ever fun evil meter maid job. i am really enjoying being back. although i am sure all those people i have already wrote tickets to feel otherwise. it just made sense for me to change. money is better and the work is year round. i am going to miss all the kids. but i get to walk about five miles a day and that is way good for my health. although i do have to avoid those moving cars. I have found myself curiously wanting to pick up a pencil some here lately. but whenever i do nothing really comes of it except some doodles. i am thinking of looking and seeing if they are still having the live model sessions at the college here. i might start going there. i am starting my fusion style bellydance classes tomorrow. i am so excited. i do so love fusion style. i was released by the doctor on oct. 5 so now i must get on with my life. although my should still gets sore and aches and occasionally i move it a way it just isnt ready to move yet i am happy that i am through with it all. i do miss my therapy sessions. i plan on taking the some goodies and a card for all their wonderful work and smiles. i had so much fun last sunday night at the Boone Zombie March & Can Food Drive. What do we want? BRAINS When do we want it? BRAINS It was a great time to be had by all and for a good cause. Got to run around town "attacking people and zombie hunters" all to help the local food bank. I am so glad that one of my most favorite holidays is coming up, HALLOWEEN!!! I do so love it.

I am slowly but surely recovering from shoulder surgery. It is a long process. It has been more then 9 months since date of injury and it has been a long long haul. I have been struggling with depression and worries over what was going to happen. I am glad that most of it is behind me. Now I just have therapy to go through again.

I have uploaded a few pictures I took during the Unity Hafla for Adult Life held in Claremont North Carolian on May 2 2010. I hope you enjoy them.